That I really love Jesus
So much. I want to cry lol
….and that’s it really.
Actually, I’m gonna fry some plantain tonight and mmm can’t wait. Yummy.
I think I look pretty composed after an entire bottle of wine though lol
Selfies from my ‘being a first year’ night. I’m glad I’ve moved on haha.
Forcing my body and mind to be sober is the hardest thing lol
I hope I don’t miss my train tomorrow…
This is actually the worst. This reminds me of the time when I was head over heels in love with this light skin third year and would ring him after nights out to sober up. So I could fall asleep sober. And he was so patient. Lol. Wow. I was the worst. I don’t even know. Thank goodness for iPhone autocorrect lol.
I don’t even know. Sigh. I’m gonna have to stay up lol. But I don’t want to bother my friends. And my sisters like.. I don’t even know lol. Well. Here we are lol.
This isn’t happening again haha.
I love the really old people on First Dates cos all they want is to have sex again and it’s really cute lol.
Driving lesson cancelled tomorrow morning and I’m away all weekend and not coming back till Tuesday afternoon. And I’m an awful driver and my test is coming up in 5 weeks time!
Other than that… Things are really good :) I can’t wait to begin my weekend tomorrow haha after a 3 and a half hour train journey, eek.
Actually, let me be a bit more positive about my driving. I’m really good at doing manoeuvres, my spatial awareness is a lot better. And my clutch control is pretty good too.
What I need to improve on is anticipating what other drivers are doing and act on it, safely and quickly.
I genuinely think I just forget that I’m in control of the vehicle lol. Jesus, remind me to take the wheel lol.
Lol why is learning how to drive such a palaver for me!! I really wish I was one of those bish bash bosh drivers, where it comes so naturally to them and they look so cool. Sigh.
applying for some work experience with the City Council… It’d be great if I got it! I’ll most likely submit my application by the end of next week.
Prayer circle please :)
5 weeks until my practical driving test
prayer circle please lol i need divine intervention, seriously
please Jesus, take the wheel, literally lol :(
i’m going through so much change, hyperaware of my actions and being watched and analysed constantly by so many people and it’s getting pretty overwhelming and there’s a part of me that just wants to be invisible again. maybe it scares me that because things will never go back to way they were, there’s a new life out there for me but i have no idea what it looks like or what it is exactly that God wants from me right now or later. i still feel like i have nothing give too. and almost scared of wanting to know because i have an inkling that it’s going to be something so beyond me. and i feel like saying to God, haven’t i been through enough.. can we just chill for a moment, please. well, i have lol but i know i need to start asking, what do you want me to do? and there’s things that i’ve really wanted to try and do but i held back.. and now i guess i have the opportunity to do them and it’s really exciting but there’s all these ‘but’s in the way.
when did my life become so melodramatic lol this was not what i planned
i basically just had one of the best weekends of my life…
I’m going to make an effort to share more. Be vulnerable. Permit myself to be the subject of the conversation. Allow others to listen and learn about me. To sit up a little straighter and speak and a little louder. To take chances. If I’m not well received, that’s ok. My life isn’t in their hands. I’ll be courageous and discerning. And I’ll love myself first and foremost :)
I’m going to work on being more open and honest. I’m genuinely scared lol this is not me at all. But it’s the person I want to be.so I’m gonna try it out like!
Jess’s ethnic white people comment was irksome.
Their obsession with being the default is scary….
Also, I’m warming to Winston finally lol
omggg lool you’re so mean
yes this is my life- getting excited over meat-free sausages!
I’ll tell you what they taste like :)
i think i’m slowly eliminating meat from my diet. it’s been working out rather well.
except for new years/christmas/holidays/congolese parties etc lol
My sweetie jar is full :)
Turns out the hot guy from the supermarket is from my home town.
We had a pleasant chat :) I’ll just casually go to his checkout again hehe :)
Also, I bought meat-free sausages. I wonder what they taste like. I’ll see tomorrow over dinner. Excited…